Ever been in a situation where you keep asking yourself just who exactly are you? Well that has been me for the past couple of months. I have always had multiple self-evaluating moments but most of the time, I’m unable to answer some questions.
I remember a few months ago, I was sharing with whom I’d call my best friend. I kept on telling him how detached I felt from myself and how I wasn’t feeling anything at all. I seriously lacked motivation for close to everything that surrounds me and I would prefer to be alone most of the time. As dangerous as it seemed, my solitude sought of gave me solace and time to just think about who I am, my family, my likes and dislikes, my job, prejudices and ideologies, my degrees and accomplishments, my societal sculpted personality , and everything else that I hold dear. If all this were to be removed, then just who will I be? What will define Elle? What is my message to the few people around me?
Am I a true version of myself, or a watered version of who I’m supposed to be? And every other day, we get so immersed into life and things that do not really matter. Amazing enough, we all have only one life to live, which is very brief, not even short.
The journey of self-discovery is one that doesn’t have a destination, but full of lessons, hope, grace, faith that at the end of it all we will always look back and say we did our best.
So as I try to put my best foot forward, become the best version of myself seeking God’s guidance, love and protection, I have learnt to adopt to situations and circumstances. Not every day I’ll be perfect, I’m bound to make mistakes but the most important thing is learning from them and nothing lasts forever.
Finally growth is optional. I have also learnt to let go of any baggage in my life. Anything or anyone who is a baggage is just out. Because ain’t nothing pretty about baggage’s :-).
So loves, I sincerely hope that each one of you will find the courage to take a step back and positively evaluate themselves.:-).
Love and Love.